Who am I?

I guess I'm at that point in my life (AGAIN!?!?!?) where I sit around and wonder over and over...who am I?

I feel like I'm running in a circle. I feel like I make the same mistakes over and over. People see me as something I don't feel I am. I don't feel like I"m a hard worker, yet everyone says that I am. Julie thinks I have too much on my plate right now, but I don't think I do. People say I hate them, but I really don't. I'm just so confused about who I really am. I don't feel like I have a clear head or the ability to make good decisions. How on Earth am I supposed to raise a child in a good way?

I guess I shouldn't gripe.. I have shelter over my head and food on my plate (more than enough--I might add). I have a steady job and an opportunity to go back to school. I have a beautiful daughter who cracks me up--I have a wonderful family too.

I don't know what it is I'm looking for then. Sleep maybe.

Sleep has been crazy this week. Every time I go to sleep I have these weirded out dreams. One night it was that there was a bat in the bathroom here at the library, other times it was just relational things. Last night I dreampt that I went to a chinese/japanese restaurant with Jenna... and I couldn't reach any of the foods because they were on high shelves or something like that... I wanted my dahl!..

I think part of my problem is that I need sleep. Go figure.. I'm never going to get it.

Despite the fact that I'm going to have to pay it all back, I got the funding for school (Yahoo!). The loans cover it all, minus the discount I get from ALA. Hopefully I'll be able to do well in the classes. I am a bit nervous!