Cold Feet and Tom Petty?

NO... I'm not dancing around a morgue singing "Let's dance with mary-jane" in bare feet. Although, my feet have been feeling quite chilly as of late. I guess it's from going in and out of the cold and snow we've been experiencing. However, I am experiencing cold feet of the cliche sense. Maybe not realated to weddings (oh wait.. yes that too) but also related to going back to school. I'm coming up on my fifth year out of college, and I'm feeling that my brain is a bit atrophied. I'm not sure that I could keep up with the demands. I have gone as far as getting accepted, and registering for a couple of classes...But, everytime I mention that I'm going back to school for that degree someone says, "that's nice... congratulations... I heard that it's a really tough program". AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH don't tell me that .... I really don't want to know..! As per usual however, I will try to stick it out and do the merry best I can!

Now...to the Tom Petty (although the reference up there was clearly Tom Petty, I was thinking of another one as I scribbled the title of the post).
I have a feeling with work, and probably a lot of other things that are coming up, many people are going to be thinking, feeling, even singing: "You don't know how it feels, You don't know how it feels, you don' know how it feels..... To be me-e-e-" (Of course I doubt the people I work with will be singing Tom Petty... but I would because the particular lyrics right then fit).

I guess that's a quirky thing about me. I tend to pull lyrics from songs that are very situational. I think other people do that too, but I seem to do it constantly. Either that or I take the tune that's going on in my head and make up lyrics to go along with the tune AND the situation. I guess it's just one of those things I do. (And I say I don't know if I"m supposed to be a musician).

So... I'm taking a shower this morning, thinking that I'd meditate on what I might be doing today--instead my wonderful brain shoots me back to Dori's shop yesterday. There's this silly inventory sheet that no one is sure what to do about. However all the things that weren't special order have to end up with little check marks by them. I was always under the impression that we had to make sure we had the correct amount in inventory. I've been told by other people that we just have to make sure everything's been restocked. Dori can't even seem to explain it in a way that I can understand it. I'm very confused about the sheet. However, I tried to find all the books on the six page list that had been restocked. (of course one hadn't... so that's good that I was checking). The sad thing is, with the babysitter going back to school, and me going back to school...I think I'm going to have to give up the extra time in the office. I'm going to try and keep the lessons for now, but I think at this point the office work is just too much. We'll see.. but I have to write her an email.... (cold feet...dread...fear...)

So.. the last thing I'm going to write about (because I'm on the verge of being late for work) is that I had wacky dreams last night. I had a dream that I popped out another kid. I went to get the kid from the Nursery--she was beautiful with Black hair and pretty eyes--and she said at one day old... MAMA... Now after I wake, this amuses me because my first daughter seems a little bit precocious (wow I knew how to spell that?!?!?!?!). But I think it was rather disturbing that my unconscious is thinking about having another kid. I love my daughter to pieces, but I don't know if I have the mental, physical, or emotional ability to have another child.

So now, off to work I go (whistles like in Snow White---See... I told you!)
and then to the grocery store
and then to make christmas cookies for the student workers...
and then to start a busy weekend! Wahoo!